A dream come true...that wasn't my dream to begin with...

Ever since I was a little girl, I KNEW I wanted to be a parent. I had this perfect view of what my life would look like. I knew I would grow up, marry some perfect man as soon as possible, have babies and live the whole happily ever after thing. I could see myself pregnant and I would often think about carrying my future children in my belly. MOST of that came true but it is NOTHING like I envisioned it to be. I DID grow up (sort of), I DID marry the most perfect person for me and we are having a baby!

The difference is that I married a transgendered person and they are actually carrying our baby. Our journey to our baby was a frustrating, devastating, sad, happy, strengthening and all encompassing.

Chris (my love) did not have any desire to carry our babes. It was not part of who he is and this worked fine for me because that was MY job, MY calling. After many attempts and A LOT of money we had no baby, no answers, and no hope. After a lot of contemplating and a fee tears, we decided to switch "baby holders" and try with Chris. Many more failed attempts but FINALLY...it worked! We are currently 17 weeks pregnant and are still in shock a bit about how we got here!

Our life is much like everyone else's but when it comes to certain things, we definitely feel as though we are swimming in some uncharted territory. It has been interesting to tell people we are pregnant...it's pretty horrifying when someone reaches out to touch my belly (yeah...talk about a blow to your body image) and it's getting pretty funny to watch people's face when I tell them "No morning sickness for me...I'm not the one who is pregnant".

Now, we don't want to make people feel bad or embarrassed but we also are still unsure how to properly speak to our awesome arrangement! We both decided to start blogs to capture our feelings and help spread the things we are learning along the way. Keep checking in and please don't be afraid to ask questions!